"Gusto Ko Happy Ka"

September 27, 2012
While Daddy was watching Erap delivering his speech on TV, he took out one of his lines and said the words with his finger pointed at me...

Daddy: "Gusto ko happy ka. Love you, Nyel."

I don't know in what thing he specifically wants me to be happy about but thank you, Daddy. You've always been very supportive no matter what.

Why Am I Dating Him Again?

I know what you're thinking. It's not that bad to take a rest from being original sometimes as long as it's worth it. Nah, this is just too inspiring not to re-post. ♥

"Date a man who doesn’t spend his money on drink, or clothes, or video games, but saves what he has to go on adventures and pursue his dreams. He might have problems dealing with everyday things but no-one sees the possibilities life holds like he does. This is a man who is ready for anything, who will drop everything on a moment’s notice to run away and get lost somewhere with you or show up unannounced to whisk you away on some crazy adventure. Date a man who sees the world in millions of colours, who has his head in the clouds and his feet on the ground.

Date a man who hasn’t got the money to spoil you or shower you with gifts but finds a way to do it anyway. You can trust that he’ll find a way to touch your heart and make you feel special in new ways. He knows that words and gifts aren’t what matters. Every time he gives you something or writes to you he is giving you a piece of his soul. And every time you give him something or write to him he will truly treasure it and understand the effort you put in to choosing the gift, the words, or even making it yourself.

Date a man who sees how amazing you are even if you don’t see it yourself, who sees how good things could be for you. Because a man like this who can see the end goal, the big picture, will keep on going because no obstacle can compare to what lies ahead. Date a man who believes in true love, in romance. He will dream up incredible fantasies that the two of you can bring to life together. He will take you places other people can’t even imagine. Date a man who believes in you, because he will help you believe as well. He will see echoes of you in every thing of beauty, and he sees beauty in everything. A man like this will always think you’re the most beautiful girl in the world and will always be there for you.

Date a man who reads books and comics, who watches films and cartoons, who laughs at stupid jokes and knows when to fall into a reverential silence and drink in the moment with you. You can just be yourself with him and he’ll just be himself. He’ll understand why you love the things you do and he’ll appreciate them and be interested in them too, even his own passions lie elsewhere. He understands your whims and desires, because he’s seen them acted out in his mind. And whatever the scenario, no matter how bad things get, he sees how the story ends. And because he sees how it ends, he knows that all tragedies are overcome, all villains vanquished and fears are banished, no matter how desperate the situation may appear. Better still, date a man who writes.

Date a man who can’t be pigeon holed into any one category, who can mingle in any crowd but doesn’t truly fit in any one scene. He’s an individual, a man who knows what it takes to stand out from the crowd and who doesn’t mind being judged or thought of as different. That’s why he will never judge you or make lazy assumptions about you. That’s why he will always see you as your own person, as a unique and wonderful individual.

Fail him. Let him down. Hurt him. He’ll do the same to you: but he knows that this is just how things go. He knows that life is made up of ups and downs. He will understand that when you lash out at him or push him away, there are many reasons why. Instead of getting mad or retaliating he’ll try and make things right. He knows when to apologise and admit to making mistakes. He’s also quick to forgive because he knows how easy it is to make mistakes. He understands that your flaws and vulnerabilities make you beautiful and strong.

He knows that perfect harmony doesn’t exist and that nothing is forever. He knows that you see this too: he sees beauty and freedom in this and wants to help you see it too. He knows fear and embraces it. He knows sadness. He knows his many flaws. He is prepared to adapt and to change because he respects your values and your opinions. He knows that nobody is perfect but that doesn’t stop him trying to do his best. He knows that love needs to be worked for, that relationships are a constant flow from love and laughter to arguments and conflict, that like all things the good times come with the bad and that the dancing and loving and laughing are worth the fighting. He wants you to be happy even if it means not being with you, but in his heart he believes that he can make you happy like nobody else and so will do anything to be with you.

Date a man who remembers every little thing about you, who is intuitive, who can see when you’re happy or sad, when you need cheering up or when you want to get away from it all or just forget everything for a while. He sees everything about you. He understands that you’ll be a different person from moment to moment, that you’ll change your mind and your mood without warning. He knows that you can switch between being a baller shot caller, a kawaii otaku, an artistic auteur or a femme fatale in the blink of an eye, an that they are all a part of who you are. He loves and pays attention to each and every aspect of your personality, from the girl who needs to be cuddled and cared for to the woman with her own needs and desires.

Date a man who fights to be in your life no matter what. A man who values you and believes he should be with you will only see that you are scared of how much this could mean for both of you. This kind of guy who will always be there for you when the times are tough, who is always looking out for you even when you’re not together or when you cannot see him. Date a man who will always believe you should be together: a man who will never give up on you no matter what. Date a man you’re scared to date, precisely because you cannot think of a reason you should be scared to be with him.

Date a man who knows that this isn’t about him, but about you: a man who loves you with his heart and soul. You deserve it.

Date a man who dreams. Who dreams about you.

Or better yet, date a man who lives his dreams."

- Date A Man Who Dreams,
Dom Tsui

Still Lookin' Up

August 30, 2012

"God knows I'm tough enough...

God knows we're worth it."

-I Won't Give Up, Jason Mraz

The Profile Photo

September 22, 2012

I know, the blemishes are disgustingly distracting. I'm still figuring out which treatment would be best for those pimples and pimple scars on my face to go away. Suggestions, anyone? But then anyway, I still chose to put this up as my default picture since it's the most recent photo of how I look. Just for the sake of contemporaneity. 

Just Say Good Night

September 13, 2012
Text conversation with boyfriend.
Fell asleep without saying good night...

Me: "Good morning, lablaaab! Nakatug nasad ko. I'm sorryyy. Mwa! I love you so much!! Bday na sa akong daddy. Haha. :)"
Me: "Tulog pa akong uyaaab?"
Me: "I love you! Good morning!!! Naa nako sa office. :)"
Boyfriend: "Bleh! Pangiiit! :p"

Happens all the time. I'm thankful that he doesn't put up a fight with me just because of sleeping him off even though I know he doesn't like it when I do. He then just says "Kung dili pa lagi lab ah." I'm such a spoiled girlfriend. *Giggles* ♥

Zisis Going To Be Random

Today, I say hola once again to blogging.


What made me think of going back to writing my mind out when I don't even know how to write in a "bloggy" way anymore? Well, I just need an excuse...an escape actually. I got a job in this department for almost a month now where everyone in the office got their eyes stuck on their computer monitors the whole eight long office hours. I usually just wait for my boss to ask me to do something, which happens like...only once in a week? So most of the time, I just sit in my oh so comfortable office chair and face the monitor and act as if I'm doing something when in fact I'm not. I have Facebook, Twitter and Tumblr in Google Chrome's incognito window and restored down into a small box so I somehow wouldn't easily get caught social networking while in the office. Google and other websites should be okay because they'd be deceived that I'm just doing my task since I'm assigned to the researching work of the Business Development Division, when I'm actually just reading random stuff in the internet. It came to a point where I didn't know what to read anymore. I didn't know what to Google anymore. And then, I thought of blogs. Why didn't I ever think of blogs in the very first place?!

So voila (I don't know what this word really means, but I'm going to use it anyway because it sounds magical. What in the world am I saying?), I activated my Blogger account again. There's a secret to the title "Of Conversations and Candid Expressions" of this blog page. Figure it out, figure it out, figure it ooout! Remember Nickelodeon's show Figure It Out? Yes, that. I used to watch that a lot.

The foreign word in my very first statement. Why is this little kid using an Español word, by the way? I want to completely blame it on the little Spanish blood that runs in my veins, but yeah okay, I admit that I'm just simply a frustrated Spanish language learner.

So you see, this is such a good way to waste my time. It's already 5 o'clock in the afternoon. It's time to go home.

I told you this was going to be random. Uselessly random. Tah-tah!